Unlawful Mess

Well, my lows are pretty much spread out over tumblr. So i don’t need to reiterate them.

My highs, well. they’ve been awesome. 

- finally got my mom to accept that i may join the National Guard.

- school has been going pretty awesomely swell.

- i’ve found that balance between partying and studying and getting the hang of it.

- we started talking again. just as friends.

- my level of independence has grown significantly.

well now, this is becoming a habit. 

the semester starts good. ends crappily.

all because of boys.

note to self: guys in or from SF SUCK.

the only good guys are the ones you don’t see yourself in a relationship with…or are gay.

i’m trying so hard not to be bitter about it.

i don’t want to.

this will be a tough run to the finish line.

i can’t wait til saturday. 

i’ll blow off some steam there.

Just dance, gone be okay

Just dance, spin the record babe

Just dance, gone be okay

i am going to kill you maim yo face, you son of a bitch.

i thought i wasn’t. but here i am ready to shank an asshole like you.

even though i should be over this, i’m not and i don’t know why.

and that’s why i hate you.

because i don’t like hating people.

it has taken me almost 6 months to get over being pissed as fuck at someone else.

i don’t like this feeling.

herp.

so you made yourself to look like an asshole. 

i should be over and done with this.

i really do. i need to focus on better things.

i’m gonna sound like a bitch, but.

i hope it hurts when it’s over.

derp.

- Beast finals

- party hardy with the AP before Cois heads to BootyPest

- SLEEP.

- drop whatever lbs i gained this semester. xD

- get back into taekwondo

- work out

- continue being focused

Mom’s about to get a preview of her worst nightmare for me.

Heading to Fresno for my aunt’s farewell party before she ships to Iraq.

I miss playing/hanging out with my cousins. This goes mainly to my cousins on my dad side because we’re so close in age. It’s weird to think that the lil cousin who I used to watch when he was 5 is trying to decide what COLLEGES to apply to next fall. I miss playing with the baby cousins because I know, after seeing this soon to be high school graduate grow up, that they’ll be big soon. It’s strange to think that the relationship that I have with the cousins on my mom’s side is and will be the relationships that I have with my younger cousins on my dad’s side.

On my dad’s side, I’m one of the oldest. On my mom’s side, I’m one of the youngest. On my mom’s side, there is almost a good 5-10 year difference between me and my cousins. I didn’t know them very well growing up except for the ones that I was closer in age to or the ones that baby sat me. But now that I’m in my early 20s and the older ones are in their early 30s, I get to hang out with them more and get to know them better on a different level. I feel like our relationship was a, “grow up and we’ll meet up when you’re older, then we’ll talk”. I think, I wanted so badly to be treated like one of them, I forced myself to mature faster. eh, that’s not so bad. it made me who i am today.

being on the opposite side of the age scale on my dad’s side has given me the chance to learn what it felt like to be my older cousins, mainly the pressure to be a good role model. that’s one of my goals. to inspire my younger cousins to do good. i sorta see that now with my cousin. he wants to go to USF. can you say Alipio Legacy? Hell yeah. I’m going to use some of that older cousin influence and “suggest” that he pledge for APhiO. that would be cool. it would give me a lot of reasons to stick around after graduation. haha

alumni advisor in the future?

we’ll see. 

hahah

RT @Mike_Wntrz: Kevin Weekes, CBC: “Strong foreplay by Gagner, with support from Penner.” Things just got a lot sexier. #Oilers #doubleTeam

laaame. 1-1. goal by Edmonton. c’mon boys. move your feet.

goal! 1-0 sharks!

Sharks v Edmonton. Let’s gooo!

thank god. win for the sharks